I don’t know how to move past feeling like shit, any time something reminds me to feel like shit, I instantly feel like shit.

All the good I do for other people, I still feel like shit.

All of the good I do for myself, prop myself up, make sure I’m staying mentally proper, I still feel like shit.

I don’t think it’s fair, and that just makes me feel worse.

and I can’t complain about it, because complaining about things just makes people not want to talk to me anymore

but I don’t go out of my way to make anyone else feel bad for complaining, so why do I feel like shit

why is it different whenever I am involved